Sunday, July 10, 2005

cla aka clara

you know the mindset we have? the warped logic? heh. dun be surprised if ppl in NHSS have them too.. is it the NHSS thing, or is it just a purely simply deecla thing? i dunno. heh. i came across this poem in a book jun lent me..

stone by stone- rachel bentley
i have a wall you cannot see
because it's deep insode of me
it blocks my heart on every side
and helps emotions there to hide
you cant reach in, i cant reach out
you wonder what it's all about

the wall i built that you cants ee
results from insecurity
each time my tender heart was hurt
the scars within grew worse and worse
so stone by stone i built a wall,
that's now so thick it will not fall

please understand that it's not you
continue trying to break through
i want so much to show myself
and love from you will really help
so bit by bit, chip at my wall,
till stone by stone it starts to fall

i know the process will be slow,
it's never easy to let go
of hurts and failures long ingrained
upon one's heart from years of pain
im so afraid to let you in,
i know i might get hurt again

i try so hard to break the wall
but seem to get nowhere at all
for stone upon each stone i've stacked
and left between them not a crak
the only way
to make it fall is imperfections in the wall

i did the best i could to build
a perfect wall but there are still
a few small flaws which are the key
to breaking through the wall to me
please use each flaw
to cause a crack
to knock a stone off the stack

for just as stone by stone was laid
with every hurt and every pain
so stone by stone the wall will break
as love replaces every ache
please be the one who cares enough
to find the flaws, no matter what.

the first time i saw this, i loved this poem.. inspirational ya?

wishing;
7/10/2005 12:12:00 AM

*dilys and clara
*deecla
*19
*Blah blah blah...

Stars of my life
::manling::
::shuyi::
::sharon::
::eUg::
::sompong::
::bimbotic ler!::
::yings!::
::pui kor::
::lanbo::
::nana!::
::mad!::
::bong!::
::wuuu hui!::
::siyin!::
::diL aka dee::
::tsai hsiu::

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Searching for a glimmer of hope

To My friends who are... engaged
~the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
but how good you are for each other~

To My friends who are... still holding on
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone in life and fall in love
only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be
and you have wasted years on someone who wasnt worth it.
If he isnt worth it now
he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now
Let go~

To My friends who are... heartbroken
~Heartbreak last as long as you want
and cut as deep as you allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreak
but to learn from them